Who needs time?? 🙄 Un -Valentinesing

So my ass is totally single this Valentine’s Day and it doesn’t seem to help that I keep seeing stuff and people’s plans for Valentine’s everywhere on my phone & social. I am jealous, totally😐!! Enough of trying to show that I wouldn’t prefer having a partner to spend the day with and have those lovey dovey moments with and later seal the night with some intense love making. I may come off as a strong feminine comfortable on their own but even with all that, I still want some company and affection. So this years Valentine is gonna find me indoors in the downers club. All single loners are welcome to join me….(p. s Am no longer a Debbie Downer, I got myself some Valentine’s plans and I can’t wait for it.)

I just got off from a relationship not so long ago though it’s been a while now… I realise most times, we females feel the need to not express our need to have a partner or boyfriend reason being it’s believed men are the ones meant to do the chasing or whatever that bullshit entails🙄.Especially after a girl comes out of a relationship, in most times you realize the girl says she needs to take some time off guys so she can figure things out. Well, news flash, I’m not one of those girls. I have been that girl for so long, as long as five minutes ago but I was only that girl to the rest of the world and not to myself. I say this because the minute I ended my last relationship, I fucking knew what I wanted in the next relationship I would be in. I’ve been telling my friends who ask me whether I’m interested in dating any time soon and I keep lying by saying am ‘taking some time off’ to enjoy ‘solitude ‘🤥…well, I don’t need time to enjoy solitude. I’m not out to rush into another relationship but it doesn’t mean I am closing myself to the idea of it just cause I recently left one.

I feel that the female generation now shouldn’t be closed off from the idea of speaking out their minds and what they want from life. Right now I can damn sure as hell say I want to fall in love with a man who brings out the beautiful being that I know I am. To be my partner and companion. To be my lover and best friend. I am a great sap for romance and I am choosing not to allow myself any lesser than I deserve just cause the rest of the world deems its so. Someone asked me why am so open with talking about my sexuality and what I like and I told them am learning what it is I like and sex just happens to be one of those things. I still respect the sanctity of it, I’m just choosing to not see it as an embarrassment since its not.

I have not mentioned this to many but I have been crushing on someone but it’s now fizzling slowly into nothing. He made me feel special for a while and I thought that he probably sorta felt the same but now I realize he doesn’t and I am okay with that. Its a bummer but we move on. It proved to me he wasn’t the right one and I wasn’t about to settle for someone who wasn’t good enough for me. I have been there, done that. Just cause he didn’t see it, doesn’t mean I ain’t gonna grow feelings for someone else is it??? Exactly my point. Goodnight ✌.

5 responses to “Who needs time?? 🙄 Un -Valentinesing”

  1. I love this post!!! I’m so glad you’re comfortable with what you want, you know what you want, and you aren’t going to settle. That’s the path to misery right there.
    I have mixed feelings about Valentine’s Day – while I’d love to have my hubby bring me flowers or do something “traditional” – we’re also pretty good about letting one another know that we care through gestures the rest of the year. And, to be frank, I don’t want to be fighting for a table at a restaurant one night out of the year when we could eat there almost any other night! I’ve got the salt lamp he so sweetly purchased for me right here on the desk, I see that EVERY day. That beats the heck out of a once in year event for me.
    Keep writing, and looking for that man who will treat you well, and love you better.

  2. It’s an awesome piece of mind,,what kills many relationships among us youths is the inability of females to express how they feel,what they want or how they want to be treated,,if we both shared our thoughts and feeling without a thought on the societal view on most things I swear we could have perfect or close to perfect relationships

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