So my ass is totally single this Valentine’s Day and it doesn’t seem to help that I keep seeing stuff and people’s plans for Valentine’s everywhere on my phone & social. I am jealous, totally😐!! Enough of trying to show that I wouldn’t prefer having a partner to spend the day with and have those lovey dovey moments with and later seal the night with some intense love making. I may come off as a strong feminine comfortable on their own but even with all that, I still want some company and affection. So this years Valentine is gonna find me indoors in the downers club. All single loners are welcome to join me….(p. s Am no longer a Debbie Downer, I got myself some Valentine’s plans and I can’t wait for it.)
I just got off from a relationship not so long ago though it’s been a while now… I realise most times, we females feel the need to not express our need to have a partner or boyfriend reason being it’s believed men are the ones meant to do the chasing or whatever that bullshit entails🙄.Especially after a girl comes out of a relationship, in most times you realize the girl says she needs to take some time off guys so she can figure things out. Well, news flash, I’m not one of those girls. I have been that girl for so long, as long as five minutes ago but I was only that girl to the rest of the world and not to myself. I say this because the minute I ended my last relationship, I fucking knew what I wanted in the next relationship I would be in. I’ve been telling my friends who ask me whether I’m interested in dating any time soon and I keep lying by saying am ‘taking some time off’ to enjoy ‘solitude ‘🤥…well, I don’t need time to enjoy solitude. I’m not out to rush into another relationship but it doesn’t mean I am closing myself to the idea of it just cause I recently left one.
I feel that the female generation now shouldn’t be closed off from the idea of speaking out their minds and what they want from life. Right now I can damn sure as hell say I want to fall in love with a man who brings out the beautiful being that I know I am. To be my partner and companion. To be my lover and best friend. I am a great sap for romance and I am choosing not to allow myself any lesser than I deserve just cause the rest of the world deems its so. Someone asked me why am so open with talking about my sexuality and what I like and I told them am learning what it is I like and sex just happens to be one of those things. I still respect the sanctity of it, I’m just choosing to not see it as an embarrassment since its not.
I have not mentioned this to many but I have been crushing on someone but it’s now fizzling slowly into nothing. He made me feel special for a while and I thought that he probably sorta felt the same but now I realize he doesn’t and I am okay with that. Its a bummer but we move on. It proved to me he wasn’t the right one and I wasn’t about to settle for someone who wasn’t good enough for me. I have been there, done that. Just cause he didn’t see it, doesn’t mean I ain’t gonna grow feelings for someone else is it??? Exactly my point. Goodnight ✌.